Monday, 7 January 2013

Stupid Girls

Love to anyone affected by the #CutForBieber trend. I'm not a cutter myself but I can see why it would be upsetting.

Twitter makes me angry sometimes, I got really angry at some girl I've literally never spoken to or met today. I was on twitter, and one of the promoted trends was that special K thing #IWantToGain. I was flicking through it, and some girl had tweeted saying she wanted to gain self-confidence cos she has none. Understandable. But then I went to her actual page, and it was FULL of pictures of herself half-naked. Her little display picture thing showed her wearing these teeny tiny knicker shorts with bare legs, like right up to her arse, then her header photo had a picture of literally just her bare stomach.
Oh yeah, you really know what it feels like to have no confidence.

Girls like that make me really angry.

Anyways, rant over. Or that rant is over, I guess.

I said last time that I would fill you in on the night I think I broke my toe. My friend got attacked not long ago. She says some guy tried to rape her in an alleyway. I want to believe that no-one would lie about something like that, but then she always exaggerates anything that ever happens, so I can't help but be skeptical. I've offered to go see her numerous times, offered to talk to her whenever she wants and so on. Yet when we were out, she told me that I had been inconsiderate towards her and "if" i'd ever been attacked I'd understand how she felt.
That really upset me, as, while she doesn't know the full extent, I have told her some details about when I was raped. It made me so so angry that even though surely she should know how I felt, she basically said she didn't believe me. Then when I tried to tell her the full story, she just kept going on about how I didn't care about her. I almost regret trying to tell anyone ever. The grand total of people who really know is know somewhere around 5, whereas she is quite literally tweeting about it. Sickening right?
I hate that I'm not believed because I daren't talk to anyone about it, whereas she gets attention constantly and people are always walking on egg-shells around her. I feel like I'm invisible sometimes, like I just want to stand up and shout SHE'S NOT THE ONLY ONE GUYS.

But of course I don't.

So I guess it's my own fault I feel so alone in this.

In other news, today has been pretty good calorie wise. Somewhere in the region of 500 net calories, 700 or so actual. Thought tea was going to be my problem area as it normally is, but my stepdad made some awful concoction that my mum knew I didn't like so I was allowed to get away with not eating it.

Love as ever

1 comment:

  1. I feel for you. I have friends the same, it just proves that they aren't really your true friends. And whats happened to you is horrible, but you are stronger than her, because your not the one moaning and crying about it.
    Stay strong