Purging

I'm a drunken mess right now.

God I was doing so well, then I got drunk and started eating.

I feel disgusted.

I tried to purge, but as per, I'm a pathetic failure, and even with my fingers right down my throat nothing happened.

I AM A FAILURE.

I wish I could be good at this, but i'm not, just like everything else i'm not good at, i can't even starve myself well. From tomorrow, it will be different. From tomorrow, I will be worthy of the title 'anorexic'. For now I'm far too fat. I can feel chips and mayo congealing inside of me, like some kind of disease, but I can't for the life of me purge it. I stuck my fingers right down my throat and waggled, and nothing.

Any tips?

Any good purgers out there who can show me the way?

Love and light thoughts

xxx