I am so listless. Its so hard to get excited by anything.
Its my birthday tomorrow, and normally I'm super excited for ages beforehand, and this year... I just can't wait for it to be over.
I'm just numb.
I feel nothing, yet I'm constantly on the verge of tears. I don't understand.
All the things that usually cheer me up aren't working. I just want to feel normal again.
Everything I do seems really forced.
I have to force myself to smile, to enjoy myself. It used to come so naturally.
I think I lost a part of me this summer.