Binging and Tight Pants

Nothing really to report on today tbh.

Was amazing through til just after tea, was super low-cal for me, just over 600 cal, then I stupidly stupidly went to the shop and bought a load of chocolate. ARGH.

Why do I do this to myself?? Such an idiot.

For a chocolate binge it could have been a lot lot worse.
4 rows (20 squares) of Galaxy chocolate (because clearly buying the big bar seemed like a GREAT idea at the time) = 420 cal
4 maryland double chocolate chip cookies = 216 cal.

So 636.

I know thats really really bad considering I'm meant to be restricting, but all in all, it could have been a lot, lot worse.

Might leave weighing myself til tomorrow.

Least the pre-period bloat has gone, which is bizarre really considering I've not actually come on yet. Not complaining though.

I'm going to a party at my friends house on friday for his housemates birthday, and I'm kind of nervous. I've bought these new disco pants to wear which are super super tight and they look quite good as long as I'm not bloated, but I'm really worried that I'm going to randomly be having a fat day (or that we end up going the pub for tea and I give in and order something humungous).
I might just allow myself to have a decent sized lunch so that I can reasonably just tell my friend that I'm not that hungry and only have a childs meal or a salad or something (he's a boy, he won't think about it too much!)
But will I actually have a small meal or will I just end up eating ten tonne of shit?? Eek. Need to get my self-restraint under control. I'm sure it'll be okay. I'll just have to bear in mind that I'm wearing tight pants and a crop top in front of a lot of people that I don't really know, lots of them kind of hot guys.
There is a small part of me going DON'T DO IT, JUST WEAR A FAILSAFE! But I shan't give in!

N.B. my "failsafe's" are dresses/outfits that even when I'm having a fat day and think I look shit in absolutely everything, I logically know that I normally feel quite good in so generally shouldn't feel fat in.


Ack ack ack.

Love and light thoughts!! <3